I don’t trust people.
I hate admitting feelings
or asking for help.
It makes me feel weak
and I want to be strong,
independent,
someone who doesn’t need anyone.
I want to be in control,
not let things bother me,
brush them off and never think of them again.

But it doesn’t always work that way.
I hate myself for caring,
for feeling.
Because it’s my head,
my life,
and why do I not get to choose my thoughts?
Why do I give someone else the power to affect my mood?